LOVE YOU

Mommies outside there,ever feel so upset/frustrated when comes to your owns kids?,No matter in their acts/talks/characters/ pendek katanya dalam apa2 cara la. I believe when your kid become close to other its might give a bit jealousy to you.

This was happen to me and my Ruran. Since she was baby,the grandma(mum in law) had look after her, actually this is her own willingness to do so. So for me,since she want to look after my baby i just let go and say "good"la.Better still the grandma look after her own grandchild which is more secure and didnt give me any headache to think about hers condition if i put her in babycare center. Since then, the grandma was so close to her. Even night time she will come and take Ruran in my room and bring to her room. She even ever bring her away about a week to Bario. And me and hubby was like orang bujang. I do cry everytime she do like that,but seems like i cant do anything to stop her bring my baby wherever she go.

So now she was 3yrs old,2 more months turn to 4yrs old,,i've been asking her few times whether she love me or not,same goes to the daddy ask if she love daddy or not;
This is the conversations yesterday;

Mummy; Do u love mummy?
Ruran.: uhhhhh....(sigh)
Mummy: What happen?(i was holding her on her shoulder)
Ruran; pain-pain my foot(i look at her feet but see nothing)
Mummy; Love mummy or not???-again i ask her,
Ruran: mama,..i love mama(grandma)
Mummy: You love mama only?
Ruran:Yes...
Mummy: Dont love mummy,daddy izit?
Ruran:yes,
Mummy: ok,u dont love mummy,mummy not goin to buy u anything-i trying to force her to say "i love u mummy"-
Mummy; i dont want to friend you anymore, go to your mama there and dont ask mummy make your milo anymore.

dengan selamba tanpa perasaan she just walk away go to kitchen to my MIL. I have to admit that am very "heart broken" frust menonggeng padah orang, i feel like when i was cheated by my ex long long time ago. Imagine that,how i can feel the same feeling, is just that she just a kid and dont even know( but i think she know who to love already). Gosh,,is this a consequences of let my kid close to my MIL? but i do everything to show that i love them.

I mohon to God,jauhkan la prasangka buruk ku pada anak ku sendiri. i Know they do love me more than anything,.